That feeling of not having enough, of not being enough came back, and I searched in vain for books that would help to increase my self esteem, self worth.
But what is that self esteem, self worth, self image, and all things self?
It’s how we view ourselves.
It’s like looking through a kaleidoscope and tiny colourful bits of us get reflected back.
But we usually focus only on one part of us, not the whole colourful kaleidoscope.
And that focus on one part makes us feel ‘not good enough’,
we never focus on all the other coloured pieces of ours,
so it drags us down in a spiral
sliding,
falling,
feeling more worthless than ever.
How would a leaf feel if it doesn’t look at the big picture?
if it forgets that it’s a small part of a bigger whole, of the tree, of Nature, of Life itself?
How would we feel if we look only at a part of us, unfocusing from the bigger picture?
Pretty much worthless.
Not good enough as a piece of broken glass in kaleidoscope.
But as a small part of a bigger wholeness of Life, we fit perfectly where we are.
Life is inexhaustible, abundant.
Yet, we walk and live as if we aren’t a part of that inexhaustible abundance of Life.
Turn around,
see what a star in the sky would see,
the wholeness, the abundance is within us as much as it is around us.
We are a part of Life itself.
Dust off all that dirt we were taught,
that we aren’t good enough,
that we won’t ever be able to create our lives as we want.
Just see,
again and again, see
the abundance within us,
the abundance we are a part of,
and lets break those shackles in our minds.
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Featured image: Photo by Aditi Premankit
It is the natural and inherent impulse of life to seek to live more; it is the nature of intelligence to enlarge itself, and of consciousness to seek to extend its boundaries and find fuller expression. The universe of forms has been made by Formless Living Substance, throwing itself into form in order to express itself more fully.
~ Wallace Wattles, The Science of Getting Rich
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