i saw a softer side of her
in the last few days or weeks,
like the one i used to long for,
i had seen that softer side earlier
but everytime i used to resent it
not believing it to be real,
perhaps coz there was a lot of resentment in me…
neither good nor bad..
that softer side of hers is true,
she is a human being and a woman afterall..
but i dont feel anything anymore
neither resentment nor reconciliation..
just equanimity and compassion..
i had been blinded by so many resentments,
all these years..
just a certain peacefulness..
and i’m grateful to all those Christian songs,
that even after countless repeats
always helped me feel loved, the one feeling i always longed for,
helped me surrender and understand
so many things..
and to You
that helped me see and feel
that the limitless Love
just Be Love..