Uncertainty and Faith..

And the uncertainty hits 

again! 

All the doubts 

all the what-ifs 

all the anxiety 

all the feelings of worthlessness 

all the negative crippling thoughts 

they all come crawling back.. 

 

Endless possibilities 

this future holds, 

but can see only darkness.. 

What if the one dream I was holding on to didn’t come true 

what if I couldn’t clear the exam 

what if I didn’t get it? 

what then? 

Hadn’t thought of what next, 

was trying to give the best shot at it, 

and now… 

this sick feeling in the stomach 

dunno how to stop the mind 

from goin on about ‘what if, what if’.. 

 

Couldn’t take it anymore 

so I cry, letting it all out.. 

in the night, 

again as the morning comes 

still feeling hopeless 

the tears keep flowing 

still so scared 

this uncertainty! 

All i could feel was the ache 

as if it was never goin to end 

as if my worst fears were goin to come true.. 

So i cried my heart out, 

hiding away from everyone. 

 

And just then 

i felt my own heartbeat 

(maybe from crying so much?!) 

just one beat 

that i was completely aware of.. 

and I remembered what I had learnt 

how the heart pumps the blood 

continuously 

from the moment we are born, 

continuously 

it keeps beating, 

one moment at a time.. 

‘Just keep doing your work 

one moment at a time..’ 

it seemed to be saying.. 

 

And i smiled.. 

My heart gave me hope! 

brought me in the present moment 

instead of getting all panicky about the future, 

Focus on the Now. 

Coz the future is always goin to be uncertain, 

endless possibilities, 

what we think would happen 

what we want to happen 

all that 

might or might not happen, 

sometimes entirely different thing happens 

which ultimately is for our own best only.. 

 

2 years back or even a year back, 

i hadn’t even thought or imagined 

i would be at this point in my life 

where i am now.. 

But right now, it all seems perfect, 

whatever happened makes perfect sense. 

So whatever happens might be for the best, 

might make perfect sense later on.. 

 

Right now, 

one moment at time, 

along with the heartbeat! 

 

To add a clićhe, 

Go with the flow! 

[Just like the blood flows in your body, unstoppable 😉 lol] 

 

Here for a reason (song) – by Ashes Remain

Every time..that you wake up breathing.. 

Every night..when you close your eyes.. 
Everyday..that your heart keeps beating.. 
There’s purpose for your life.. 
So don’t give up! 
Don’t lay down! 
Just hold on, 
Don’t quit now! 
Every breath that you take..has meaning.. 
You are here for a reason.. 

You are..here for a reason… 

 

{Another beautiful song of theirs}

On my own (song) – by Ashes Remain

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