these dark parts within me, sometimes i make peace with them, sometimes they haunt me in the middle of the night and i can’t make peace with them all i want is for them to disappear..
Dear little girl, don’t you understand life now? it’s not always good, not always bad. it is what it is. and it’s good enough for you, isn’t it? all those fears and loneliness you faced, all those feelings of unworthiness and being unloved, but it’s all okay now coz even more than loving yourself all… Continue reading Dear little girl
Hundreds of stories swirled within her, some parts lived, some parts imagined, some read, some heard. Bits and pieces from stories of hundreds of people, fiction and real stories, mixed with her own stories. She felt too much, overwhelmed, not knowing what to do with these stories that kept overflowing, that kept swirling within her.… Continue reading Stories
Need to remember this.
First breath after coma ~ if you wake up from a coma, the first breath, so refreshing.. ~
coolness of AC in the car slow music in the headphones gazing out the window at people at clouds and as the cab stops at a signal, i notice a Tulsi plant in a pot with red kumkum on it and i smile at it.. Everything is life.. Life is everything.. Life is so easy..… Continue reading Same life, alive
“Something’s getting in the way.. Something’s just about to break.. I will try to find my place.. In the diary of Jane.. As i burn another page As i look the other way I still try to find my place In the diary of Jane.. So tell me.. How it should be?” This destructive side… Continue reading As I burn another page – Music
I want to be able to sleep in an open field, to travel west, to walk freely at night…
after writing in journal, switching off all lights sitting quietly in the dark i face my own thoughts and judgements.. it’s not the other people that bother me, it’s my own thoughts and judgement of them that bothers me more. this chattering mind doesn’t stop. where does it gets all this energy from? why don’t… Continue reading Dear mind
suddenly i’m tired. i dont want to maintain any relations just coz i have to. i dont want to answer any calls coz i must. i want to be able to do things from my heart, not just coz i have to. i want to throw off this phone and tell everyone to eff off,… Continue reading Maintaining relations is tiring
They keep moulding me just like them, and i mould too, but there’s this thing within me that keeps me from becoming like them. Outwardly, i’m like them, i act just like they want me to. Inside, it’s a messy chaos with a little beauty in a few corners with only a wanting to live,… Continue reading Frustrated
Hammock ~ I’m alive. and on days like this, that is just enough. Being around judgmental and negative people, i was becoming like them..but i don’t have to become like them. I don’t have to become anything. I don’t need to become anything. I’m alive and that’s enough for me…to be able to feel, to… Continue reading Breathturn – Music
“For the lights of this city they only look good when i’m speeding.. Gonna leave them all behind me coz this time… I’m gone.. Long gone.. This time i’m letting go of it all.. So long.. Coz this time i’m gone… If nothing is everything, if nothing is everything, i’ll have it all..”