Questioner: I'm aware of all of the ways that I mess with myself, my nonsense. And I create a lot of pain for myself, so I'm going towards awareness but I’m still experiencing the pain of the mind. How might someone address that? Sadhguru: The content of your mind is not your choice; it is decided by where… Continue reading Content of your mind is not your choice
Month: February 2017
Knowing fearlessness
~ the uncertainty.. the being common, alone.. the traveling in bus.. knowing.. that no matter what, everything is okay everything is always okay.. whether bus comes or not, whether i get late or not, whether night turns to day or not… feeling that same feeling of mumbai trip.. fearless, aloneness, deep knowing that no matter… Continue reading Knowing fearlessness
Quote
So we are always, are we not, searching for some kind of dependence, security. Is it possible for the mind ever to free itself from this sense of dependence? We have never questioned the whole issue at all, why each one of us seeks some kind of dependence. Is it not that we really, deep… Continue reading Quote
Face the fact and see what happens
We have all had the experience of tremendous loneliness, where books, religion, everything is gone and we are tremendously, inwardly, lonely, empty. Most of us can’t face that emptiness, that loneliness, and we run away from it. Dependence is one of the things we run to, depend on, because we can’t stand being alone with… Continue reading Face the fact and see what happens
suddenly being on my own, i cant stop crying.. i know its partly biochemical and partly bcoz i want to.. suddenly i’m tired, of being there for everyone.. i want to hide tonight.. where are You? i cant hear Your voice tonight.. i need Your love.. why dont they understand simple things why are they… Continue reading
Thank you
Thank you for helping me go beyond my fears for letting me be for helping me be more present more aware of the now coz that’s what matters.. past, future, conditionings, fears all that are of mind.. for helping me see clearly for every thing… ❤ ~ see how free it feels when you\'re aware… Continue reading Thank you
The mind
Anonymous said: Can you talk about jealousy. Thank you.Thecalminside:Society overvalues certain things, the ability to get lots of money, beauty among other things. The people who have these things are propped up as examples of how we all should be or at least what we should strive for. The truth is we all have talents… Continue reading The mind
Because I want to!
And there it goes again.. Same old blah blah.. And all of a sudden my defenses are on.. I defend myself, what i believe in.. Why do i have to give in? I don't want to.. Why can't, for once in my life, why can't i stand for what i believe in? I don’t believe… Continue reading Because I want to!
It’s amazing how some movies make you feel a connection with those characters.. As if you know them.. As if they are your good friends.. And you feel so much for them.. Marnie.. Anna-chan.. i know how you felt.. esp feeling abandoned from your own family esp feeling lonely in childhood so we pretend that… Continue reading
When Marnie was there
“I never had that many friends growing up So I learned to be okay with just me Just me, just me, just me And I’ll be fine on the outside I like to eat in school by myself anyway So I’ll just stay right there here Right here, right here, right here And I’ll be… Continue reading When Marnie was there
Struggling against the body
Last night, i cried. Silently. Sobbing. Shivering. Clenching fists and clenching the stomach. Sitting for a while and again lying down. Next to him. He was asleep, so deeply. I didn’t have the heart to wake him up, or just go close to him and hug. I just couldn’t. Coz i hated being a woman.… Continue reading Struggling against the body
It doesn’t take much to decide whether to go or not.. whether to be out there no matter what.. All other excuses don’t matter.. What matters more is what needs to be done.. And what needs to be done is to go to college, learn, no matter how people behave or irritate no matter what… Continue reading
And the struggle dissolves
~ its so good to let things out. its some kind of acceptance. that it’s okay to feel that way. and when i let it out, write it out, suddenly it doesn’t seem to bother me anymore.. suddenly it’s all okay.. coz i know i have a choice to be me.. the way i am..… Continue reading And the struggle dissolves
Afternoon confessions
‘What’s wrong?’ I dont know. 'Why are you escaping again?’ I dont know. 'What do you want?’ I dont know. Nothing. 'Why don’t you want to go to college?’ Bcoz they are irritating me. Batchmates, seniors, professors. We are supposed to be working together, not against each other. All the bitching that goes on. I… Continue reading Afternoon confessions
Love is all that matters
let me remember this.. ~ i love you for who you are, not what you do or don’t.. i love you as you are, without wanting to change you, sometimes i get irritated or fearful of losing you, of losing what we have again, but i love you beyond all those fears and irritations that… Continue reading Love is all that matters
~ what are you doing to me? when we’re together i’m lost in your presence, just being close to you.. when we’re not together, i dream of you, think of you.. i had stopped dreaming, scared to dream again coz dreams are so fragile, they shatter.. you’re making me want to dream again.. not huge… Continue reading
What’s your favorite thing about Earth? Life.. all kinds of life.. from insects and bacterias to trees and animals, to wide plains of grasses, to dogs and puppies, to human beings, to love.. Most fav. thing about Earth.. is that Life throbs and thrives on earth. And no matter how much people are selfish or… Continue reading
Flowers
Flowers, do you bow down and pray to that Beloved?Is that how you bloom so beautifully, so full of freshness?Flowers, tell me your secret, what makes you shine so radiantly?Do you know the secret of secrets?
No right or wrong
maybe ignorance is bliss.. i dono what to do.. (what is there to do?) maybe i just need to let it go.. coz i’m aware of the same old patterns and i don't want to act on them.. (you don't have to!) wish i could erase those memories and patterns i had thought i had… Continue reading No right or wrong
My own beating heart
~ closing my eyes, looking in my heart,i find my own heart beating..nothing else matters..everything else is anyways impermanent,everything else is anyways the slipping sand,so what does it matter anyways?trust issues or not,abandonment issues or not,insecurities or securities,none of that matters...coz ultimatelyall i haveis my own beating heart..that i trust more than myselfthat i trust… Continue reading My own beating heart
Maybe Love is Love
i thought i knew what love was, but every time… i still have no idea and yet i’m in love.. maybe love is an understanding, an acceptance of what is, letting them be as they are, maybe love is a gentleness, a certain coldness in the middle of night that makes you feel alive.. maybe… Continue reading Maybe Love is Love
It’s okay!
Finally a perfect songPJ never stops to surprise me...with each song, and each lyric...and your voice, Eddie...saying, 'it's okay.. it's okay..'coz if Eddie says it's okay, it's gonna be okay.. can't stop humming it all day and night..it's okay...am i drunk in your music?i dono! It's okay.. It's okay..you don't have to run and hide… Continue reading It’s okay!
Sitting here by the light, in the cold of the balcony, listening to postrock music, breathing in, breathing out, still slightly drunk maybe.. i miss you.. i like this cold, haven’t felt it in some time, or maybe haven’t gotten alone time to feel it completely.. and breeze whooshes thru, the leaves rustling on the… Continue reading
~ won’t you teach me how to love? to always be accepting, giving, just to keep the one you love happy? sometimes i forget, sometimes i want to run away coz i cant face my insecurities and see how stupid they really are, sometimes i dont know what to do. won’t you forgive me for… Continue reading