Content of your mind is not your choice

Questioner: I'm aware of all of the ways that I mess with myself, my nonsense. And I create a lot of pain for myself, so I'm going towards awareness but I’m still experiencing the pain of the mind. How might someone address that? Sadhguru: The content of your mind is not your choice; it is decided by where…

~ the uncertainty.. the being common, alone.. the traveling in bus.. knowing.. that no matter what, everything is okay everything is always okay.. whether bus comes or not, whether i get late or not, whether night turns to day or not… feeling that same feeling of mumbai trip.. fearless, aloneness, deep knowing that no matter…

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So we are always, are we not, searching for some kind of dependence, security. Is it possible for the mind ever to free itself from this sense of dependence? We have never questioned the whole issue at all, why each one of us seeks some kind of dependence. Is it not that we really, deep…

Face the fact and see what happens

We have all had the experience of tremendous loneliness, where books, religion, everything is gone and we are tremendously, inwardly, lonely, empty. Most of us can’t face that emptiness, that loneliness, and we run away from it. Dependence is one of the things we run to, depend on, because we can’t stand being alone with…

You are the Life

Let everything i do, say or thinkbe only for You..coz You are the Life..Let all the troubles and happinesskeep me on my kneescoz if i have this lifeall i want is to sing Your PraiseYour BeautyYour never-ending Grace and Presence..We get so entangled in our own mindswe blame it on the world,but what is the…

suddenly being on my own, i cant stop crying.. i know its partly biochemical and partly bcoz i want to.. suddenly i’m tired, of being there for everyone.. i want to hide tonight.. where are You? i cant hear Your voice tonight.. i need Your love.. why dont they understand simple things why are they…

Thank you

Thank you for helping me go beyond my fears for letting me be for helping me be more present more aware of the now coz that’s what matters.. past, future, conditionings, fears all that are of mind.. for helping me see clearly for every thing… ❤ ~ see how free it feels when you\'re aware…

~ i came across this quote, and even though i had previously read this long time back, i understand it more now. Esp about feeling insecure and a little jealous or possessive.. Those feelings occur bcoz i forget and instead see you as an image.. assuming.. past.. fears come in.. but whenever i’m with you,…

The mind

Anonymous said: Can you talk about jealousy. Thank you.Thecalminside:Society overvalues certain things, the ability to get lots of money, beauty among other things. The people who have these things are propped up as examples of how we all should be or at least what we should strive for. The truth is we all have talents…

Because I want to!

And there it goes again.. Same old blah blah.. And all of a sudden my defenses are on.. I defend myself, what i believe in.. Why do i have to give in? I don't want to.. Why can't, for once in my life, why can't i stand for what i believe in? I don’t believe…

Evening confessions

i felt pukish when eating. its just food and i shouldn’t feel that way.. coz i respect all food.. i’m sorry i cant eat it. i’m sorry i judged the food and felt pukish. i feel like a hypocrite, coz thats what i am.. i thought i could eat it, and i tried. i cant.…

It’s amazing how some movies make you feel a connection with those characters.. As if you know them.. As if they are your good friends.. And you feel so much for them.. Marnie.. Anna-chan.. i know how you felt.. esp feeling abandoned from your own family esp feeling lonely in childhood so we pretend that…

“I never had that many friends growing up So I learned to be okay with just me Just me, just me, just me And I’ll be fine on the outside I like to eat in school by myself anyway So I’ll just stay right there here Right here, right here, right here And I’ll be…

Last night, i cried. Silently. Sobbing. Shivering. Clenching fists and clenching the stomach. Sitting for a while and again lying down. Next to him. He was asleep, so deeply. I didn’t have the heart to wake him up, or just go close to him and hug. I just couldn’t. Coz i hated being a woman.…

It doesn’t take much to decide whether to go or not.. whether to be out there no matter what.. All other excuses don’t matter.. What matters more is what needs to be done.. And what needs to be done is to go to college, learn, no matter how people behave or irritate no matter what…

~ its so good to let things out. its some kind of acceptance. that it’s okay to feel that way. and when i let it out, write it out, suddenly it doesn’t seem to bother me anymore.. suddenly it’s all okay.. coz i know i have a choice to be me.. the way i am..…

Afternoon confessions

‘What’s wrong?’ I dont know. 'Why are you escaping again?’ I dont know. 'What do you want?’ I dont know. Nothing. 'Why don’t you want to go to college?’ Bcoz they are irritating me. Batchmates, seniors, professors. We are supposed to be working together, not against each other. All the bitching that goes on. I…

let me remember this.. ~ i love you for who you are, not what you do or don’t.. i love you as you are, without wanting to change you, sometimes i get irritated or fearful of losing you, of losing what we have again, but i love you beyond all those fears and irritations that…

~ what are you doing to me? when we’re together i’m lost in your presence, just being close to you.. when we’re not together, i dream of you, think of you.. i had stopped dreaming, scared to dream again coz dreams are so fragile, they shatter.. you’re making me want to dream again.. not huge…

What’s your favorite thing about Earth? Life.. all kinds of life.. from insects and bacterias to trees and animals, to wide plains of grasses, to dogs and puppies, to human beings, to love.. Most fav. thing about Earth.. is that Life throbs and thrives on earth. And no matter how much people are selfish or…

Flowers

Flowers, do you bow down and pray to that Beloved?Is that how you bloom so beautifully, so full of freshness?Flowers, tell me your secret, what makes you shine so radiantly?Do you know the secret of secrets?

No right or wrong

maybe ignorance is bliss..i dono what to do..(what is there to do?)maybe i just need to let it go..coz i’m aware of the same old patternsand i dont want to act on them..(you dont have to!)wish i could erase those memories and patternsi had thought i had erased and forgotten,but mind-brain-ego remembers..i can do nothingexcept…

My own beating heart

~ closing my eyes, looking in my heart,i find my own heart beating..nothing else matters..everything else is anyways impermanent,everything else is anyways the slipping sand,so what does it matter anyways?trust issues or not,abandonment issues or not,insecurities or securities,none of that matters...coz ultimatelyall i haveis my own beating heart..that i trust more than myselfthat i trust…

So yes, i do have trust issues, and abandonment issues.. that’s the reason i dont wanna know any truths, or any lies.. The only person i trust to be there for me, is me. Atleast i wont run away from myself lol. Atleast i cant ever abandon myself. But somehow all that doesn’t affect me…