Reflections

suddenly being on my own, i cant stop crying.. i know its partly biochemical and partly bcoz i want to.. suddenly i’m tired, of being there for everyone.. i want to hide tonight.. where are You? i cant hear Your voice tonight.. i need Your love.. why dont they understand simple things why are they… Continue reading

Reflections

It’s amazing how some movies make you feel a connection with those characters.. As if you know them.. As if they are your good friends.. And you feel so much for them.. Marnie.. Anna-chan.. i know how you felt.. esp feeling abandoned from your own family esp feeling lonely in childhood so we pretend that… Continue reading

Reflections

Last night, i cried. Silently. Sobbing. Shivering. Clenching fists and clenching the stomach. Sitting for a while and again lying down. Next to him. He was asleep, so deeply. I didn’t have the heart to wake him up, or just go close to him and hug. I just couldn’t. Coz i hated being a woman.… Continue reading

Reflections

~ what are you doing to me? when we’re together i’m lost in your presence, just being close to you.. when we’re not together, i dream of you, think of you.. i had stopped dreaming, scared to dream again coz dreams are so fragile, they shatter.. you’re making me want to dream again.. not huge… Continue reading

Reflections

What’s your favorite thing about Earth? Life.. all kinds of life.. from insects and bacterias to trees and animals, to wide plains of grasses, to dogs and puppies, to human beings, to love.. Most fav. thing about Earth.. is that Life throbs and thrives on earth. And no matter how much people are selfish or… Continue reading

Reflections

My own beating heart

~ closing my eyes, looking in my heart,i find my own heart beating..nothing else matters..everything else is anyways impermanent,everything else is anyways the slipping sand,so what does it matter anyways?trust issues or not,abandonment issues or not,insecurities or securities,none of that matters...coz ultimatelyall i haveis my own beating heart..that i trust more than myselfthat i trust… Continue reading My own beating heart

Reflections

So yes, i do have trust issues, and abandonment issues.. that’s the reason i dont wanna know any truths, or any lies.. The only person i trust to be there for me, is me. Atleast i wont run away from myself lol. Atleast i cant ever abandon myself. But somehow all that doesn’t affect me… Continue reading