Observing

Wanting to run away,not wanting to face the memories,not wanting to face what i\'m feeling,grief, sadness, anxiety,everything and nothing,yet here i am, at the doc\'s clinic,it\'s not the same,i don\'t remember that one,yet the feelings are back..i don\'t want to stay,but i know i have to..at moments like this,i wish i didn\'t have a female…

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~ why can’t i forget? please help me forget the memories, and everything.. all those memories that weigh me down every time.. why can’t i not dis-identify with them? please help me, let me dissolve them.. coz i dont want to feel this way.. makes me want to run away from this whole world, everything,…

Walking back, i feel numb, grief, sadness, heartache, everything and nothing at once..

A visit to the gynecologist

At the doc’s clinic, waiting.. Watching and observing my own thoughts and reactions.. i want to run away, dont want to be here, feels a bit claustrophobic, and i know its all those memories.. but still.. everyone has come with some one. i’m always alone.. i hate it. i dont want to ask doc but…